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Don't Wish People Dead 12:28 p.m. 2006-09-11 This afternoon, while I stopped at my "cubby" to see if there was any work there waiting (yes, it's a slow day), I happened to look down in the mail bin. There was a large manilla, official looking envelope addressed to a former employee. On the side of this envelope, in our receptionist's handwriting, she wrote "Deceased." No, this guy isn't dead. The receptionist, and this "dead" employee once had a dating relationship, years ago. They broke up after a stormy relationship and apparently, there is still no love lost. Still, although I did find this a little amusing, I still wonder, damn, writing that down is as almost as bad as wishing the guy dead! I don't think I would wish that upon anyone I've known who have "done me wrong." Yes, there is no hell fury wrath of woman who has been done wrong--I believe that, and I could attest to it, but I don't think I could write something like that down. I have enough hard time writing "deceased" on the closed files I come across. Some people actually die between court dates--usually by their own hand, or by illness or accidents. I close the file, and with a black felt marker, I write "Deceased" across the file. I feel no enjoyment doing that..even if I know I will never have to carry or file that file again. I feel as though I'm finalizing something in this person's life. A life of crime, perhaps, but a chapter of someone's life--a person, a life, no less. Now, to do this on an ex-boyfriend (I have some of those), or an ex-husband (got one of those too), or ANYONE I have crossed paths with in my life who may have stepped on my toes along the way is just unheard of. Thank God I don't feel so bitter against anyone. Life is too short to be bitter. Bitterness makes you feel miserable and ugly inside, and that really comes out and scares people away. This guy who the receptionist marked "deceased", apparently was a flirt. Never date a flirt, especially if you work in the same office. Office romance is not a good idea. I don't speak from experience, but I've seen it in action. This guy left his position here, and went out on another personal venture. He was here a few years ago, chatting away. He looked good, happy and hopeful--total opposite of our receptionist, who for the most part is pasty looking, sickly, and likes sitting in an office with no lights on. Again..bitterness will eat you up. God, may I never get that bitter! |